hard to deal with

Hi everyone not even sure what to write just reaching out to find other people I guess dealing with the same as me I have had bcc over the years a few here and there had mohs surgery a few times hadnt seen a dermatoligist since 2002 .have had some spots I was concerned about I knew what they were .made a appt got them to do a whole body check..Wow the Dr just went on and on telling the asst what she was seeing I felt like I was stuck in a bad dream. So we discussed how I would come in and get 4 or 5 biopsies at a time until they were all done. I still have 8 to go .I just had surgery on my shin for bcc first it was the regular surgery 18 staples a week later they called and said lab results came back and they didnt get it all so now they were gonna do mohs I said ok went in they did it got 38 staples. I have also had 4 more biopsies come back bad so I need surgery on my thigh same leg and my left arm 3 different places. still have results coming back in the next few days.. Im finding it very hard to deal with.. It's not the fear of the unknown just the fear of is it ever gonna end. : ( when I go back next week I am having 4 more biopsies done one is right below my eye thats scary too...So on the bright side in 2 more days I get my 38 staples out ..I'm sorry I'm rambling I am so overwelmed by all this I have family and friends I can talk to but I need someone who is going through this ..Thanks